Whoa! How did that happen?

This is what I posted this evening on the 200+ board at weightwatchers.ca:

Okay don't answer - I know how it happened. I kept turning a blind eye and letting life get in the way of my goals. I used old and unhealthy habits to deal with the challenges I've been facing. It hasn't been pretty and yet I was still SOOOOO surprised when I saw 275.6 on the scale this morning. What is up with that?

I know I have not been moving or eating healthy foods and yet I'm surprised at how quickly the weight packed on.

This eating for comfort is soooo not working for me. It is such a temporary fix that leaves me feeling worse; and worse yet is that I now have to relose a whole pile of weight.

Today was a good OP day. When I saw that number, I just realized that the party was over. If I don't stop, I will have regained everything and that is just not going to happen. How many times when I was losing did I say I would NEVER go back there. And yet I've been headed in that direction and moving quickly.

So today was a new day. I dragged out my WW materials and started journalling. I laid out my day and I stuck to it including going on the treadmill tonight. I realize if I don't do it at night, then that means I have to do it at 5:30 in the morning which seems so much harder.

So here I am - starting over again! I've cleared all my challenges and the only goal I have now is to get to my new 10% goal of 248 lbs. And there is no time limit for that. I will get there when I get there and in the meantime, I will just keep staying OP. And when I falter, I will just get up again and keep going.

The joy of life is that as long as there is breath, it is never too late to make a change.

So today is the day and its been a good day. It felt good to make the decision. I felt lighter just making the call. A friend even asked what had happened since I looked so different today. I think that look must have been resolve and maybe even some relief.