On the right track again!

It's been so long since I posted. 4 months is waaayyy too long. I was not following any program and it showed. I decided last Monday (May 30) that I needed to start so I went to my Weight Watchers account and planned my day and started from there. I have been on program since then and feeling good. I feel like I did at the beginning of this journey (September 2006). It feels natural to me to make the healthy choices and I haven't been swayed by what's happening around me. I just keep planning my days and sticking to my points and being more active. And of course it paid off.

I did not weigh myself on May 30th because I was worried to see the scale show me over 300 again. I just could not see that number. I knew it would be a negative influence I would get down on myself and it would be a setback. But on Saturday, June 4th, I weighed in at 298.6 which freaked me out but did not cause any setback. Instead I kept at it, making healthy choices, checking in at the Weight Watchers 200+ board and moving more. I had a great week and weighed in yesterday at 294.6. I was down 4 lbs which was fantastic but even better because I was on my period which usually means I stay the same or gain.

I have been using positive self-talk and imaging to help me stay on a positive track. AND another great change is that I am only weighing myself once a week on Saturdays. I will keep up with that as daily weighing has been a problem in the past.

I am going home in July and I was freaked out about people seeing that I have gained. I know there will be some looks and comments and before I started on program again, I was freaked out about it. I kept wanting to wake up 50 lbs lighter which is a great thought but is NEVER going to happen. Right now my head is in the right spot. I know that I can lose some weight before I get home and lose even more while I'm there.

I am trying to keep a "normal" healthy balanced approach to this - something I have struggled with in the past. I am trying to go by my hunger and not just eat my points because I have them. It will never be a worry that I don't eat enough because seriously, I love food and I will never cut back too much. But some days I eat all my daily points plus more and others I'm a few points shy. I feel that is "normal" and I'm going to continue on that track. It would be great to be normal for a change.

I will try to post more regularly, at least once a week after weigh in. I hope everyone who reads this is well. I'll see you soon! :)