Just crazy!

So its been over 2 weeks since they announced the closure of the mill where my husband works and I've been all over the map emotionally. TOM showed up today so that really didn't help. I know that I have been eating right off plan and not caring which is worse. My scale this morning was not looking good and tomorrow is WI. I feel like not weighing in and missing the call from the JC consultant but that is just a slippery slope that will continue this downward spiral. That is not an option.

More than anything I need to exercise. I have not gone for a walk or done much of anything for a while and my body is missing it. My head is missing it.

Henry is in Vancouver now. He had planned to go to see KISS before all this started and everything was paid for. It's just as well. He needed a break anyhow so its good he went. All its been about is finding work and talking about all the depressing subjects - like how we will likely have to leave town and how our beautiful home is not worth much anymore since the announcement and how Henry will likely have to leave us to work until we can sell the house. We won't be able to buy anything else until we sell so he will have to rent something cheap or board somewhere.

It is just a big mess and I know that overeating is not helping me. I have been eating lots of unhealthy foods and I am feeling swollen. Part of that is my period but lots of it is from the foods.

I need to get back on that track and keep chugging along. Even if I don't lose, I absolutely do not want to gain anything.

Anyhow, for right now, I am going to watch the Jenny Craig Touchstones for Success dvd and see if I feel more inspired to focus. I will plan out my day tomorrow food and activity-wise and I will stick to the plan. Period. End of story - well more like end of post.